I had been eyeing the laundry basket for the past week. Denying it needed to be tackled. I looked out the window and saw snow! SNOW! I love snow days... Suddenly there is a spike in my energy and motivation level... The insurmountable laundry basket looked manageable. My daughter's room waiting to be finished painting, … Continue reading 012 Life is for the living: Housework
So I book to go to the cinema on friday night by myself. I picked the only film showing right after work at 5.40pm, which turns out to be '3 Billboards Ebbing, Missouri. I purchase a large glass of Merlot and a packet of mature cheddar crisp. I submit my ticket and go to take … Continue reading Self Love: 3 Billboards Ebbing, Missouri
It's mother day today. My son made me a perfect soft boiled egg on brown bread toast and a cup of tea. I am now watching Pitch Perfect 2 with Rebel Wilson (my female crush). I admire her straight talking badass attitude both as an actress and in real life. I am crying with laughter. … Continue reading Self Love: Rebel Wilson.
Today I skirted an emotional pot hole. The article I posted previously was too real and triggered me. I was standing on the edge of the hole, being aware of it, but not looking down. Instead, I stepped over it and continued with my evening, my day, my life...
No Contact! The scapegoat walks away By Billie How does it feels when someone you have never met before explains your fate to you with such clarity, your authentic self slowly sits up and starts taking notice immediately. Taking note, that your fate is the fuel that lights the fire under the behind of your … Continue reading 010 Life is for the living: I have wandered off into the darkness, (which will turn to light) never to return.
A child is already disadvantaged in their ability to relate to other people by the trauma they have suffered. It carries through to maturity and beyound. Can this learning be unlearned? Yes! But it is damned hard work and in order to be successful it will take making a commitment to love yourself. Start with … Continue reading Family Dynamics: Trauma Bonding, ‘there has to be another way to live this life’.
Yesterday I met an angel... Going for a walk with my colleague on my lunch break, I invited myself to meet her daughter and grand-daughters at play. "Where's the monster?" My colleague says chuckling while looking for Evie who I'd heard so much about. The play area is filled with parents and their young ones. … Continue reading Chp 4 Otherness, with loving kindness: Evie…
So, I sent my estranged mother a card to congratulate her on her new Flat. I do this for myself, regardless of our history. For my own good I cannot be in her presence. This is what caring from a distance looks like...
I am currently doing a mindfulnesss course to regulate my anxiety. I am being encouraged to take time - take time for myself. With no hurry or worry of consequence.
'Whiteness' & 'Blackness' are contructed identities that polarises the world we live in. They are also the colour of the umbrellas which currently shelter economical and political power. In a now crumbling binary world is there room for a polka dot umbrella?