Standing in a crowded room, you are suddenly alone in your head.
Something was said to trigger a disassociation from reality.
Can’t remember, not quite sure. My temperature is rising, I am hot even though sitting or standing perfectly still.
Got to get away from this feeling.
A feeling of being wrong, stupid, a failure, disappointment. My little girl self wants to feel safe but there is nowhere to hide. No dark corner or room.
Her weirdness is exposed.
The shame that binds.