#2 Christmas 2017: Thoughts on spending it alone.

There were tears, deep soul wretching sobs as I gave into my unfulfilled desires. Feeling much better after it, the elephant in the room was allowed to pursue it’s hunt for peanuts… ignored once again.

Eat, drink, watch TV, sleep & REPEAT!

So much fuss over one day, intensifying the pain of those who feel keenly, the force of loneliness. It is all they know even in company, they cannot stray too far, for the fear of being dragged deeper into the abyss of subliminal truths.

That truth that scares us all…

Of wants, there is plenty to fill the vast chasm of greed, of needs there is little to access to stop the hole bleeding ‘ free will’.

I want to feel something for Christmas I once did… but now there is just numbness where my Joy once was.

I whisper thanks everyday for waking up, I do the best I can to get tbrough my day with my mind intact.

One day at a time, no pressure to follow the herd.

 

 

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