So, I sent my estranged mother a card to congratulate her on her new Flat. I do this for myself, regardless of our history. For my own good I cannot be in her presence. This is what caring from a distance looks like...
"Love yourself first... So that love isn't a stranger when it comes." Jenifer Lewis
"A New Year full of Contentment for All.!" Earlier I re-phrased the saying, "A happy wife makes a happy life." To "A Contented Wife makes life Content." Well I am applying the same change to my new years greeting. Being contented is so under-rated and unappreciated, stuck between 'Happy' or 'Sad'. On my spectrum of … Continue reading 008 Enlightenment: And a ‘Contented’ New Year to All!🎉
The one word that can cause stagnation forever is... "EXPECTATION!" Mostly expectations from parents, peers, work or yourself. Sometimes there is no control over some of these 'Expectations', namely 'Rules'; 'Rules' for health and safty and "Rules' for law and order. However, it is the expectations laced with emotions that bind most. The ones that … Continue reading 007 Enlightenment: ‘Great Expectation’
Either sh*t or get off the f#@king pot.” Sam Christie, 2017 Well I guess I'm just pooping all over the place right now! Expelling all the toxicity from my mind and body. It's coming out of me like along line of toothpaste, unbroken or cracked. Some image eh? It feels good... Wasn't it Freud that … Continue reading 006 Enlightenment: Antidote to the past,’going Potty’
I am standing at the bus stop with my right arm psychologically missing. I wondered if all the people walking past were noticing the one armed girl waiting for her bus. Wasn't it obvious to them she was broken, detached from reality. The reality of the emptiness where her brother once stood by her side. … Continue reading 005 Enlightenment: Antidote to the past, grief & loss.
"I forgive myself for the expectation of hoping that my past could have been any different..." Somebody said it on Oprah. A sister- friend sent me a Oprah link where she quoted Ilanya Vanzant and another guest on her show. I started this blog in the basement airing my dirty laundry for all to see. To … Continue reading 004 Enlightenment: Antidote to the past, forgiving hope…
If you are feeling absolutely, isolated and crushed this Christmas, know there is someone more crushed than you, less crushed than than you, who will succeed in ending it all, so as not to be so crushed any more... Not me, I am not there yet, or hope I will ever be, even though the … Continue reading #6 Happy Family: Perspective
Dear Inner Child, we are the dynamic space, void, enitiy that reflects the light. We are not the words written on the exterior, perimeter of the page. We are the space between the pages of history that have been written out. I don't know who said it, but I must have read it somewhere. Anyway it … Continue reading 014 Dear Inner Child: we are the space that reflects the light…
My melancholy is the most faithful mistress I have known; what wonder, then, that I love her in return. Søren Kierkegaard, Either/Or: A Fragment of Life